How can someone overcome depression and suicidal thoughts?

Question

Hello doctor,

I am a 20-year-old female. I have suffered from depression since I was in junior high school. My parents are strict, and they put such high expectations on me that it became a heavy burden on my shoulder. Since then, I have always thought about committing suicide; I think I am not good enough for anyone and that I am better off being left alone. People around me keep telling me to be positive, but I do not know why it is difficult. They say I am being dramatic, and I choose to suffer like this, that everything is on my mind. Maybe they are right that I am an ungrateful human being. That is why I distance myself from everyone and dislike myself. I often run out of breath just thinking about what a terrible human being I am. I sleep way too much and eat way too much. Hilariously, I feel constantly exhausted, and I keep losing weight. I often think about running onto any bus that comes through on my way to work or home. I never take medication. I cut myself sometimes to put myself at ease. I work out so that I can focus on something. Is there anything I can do to heal myself?

Thank you.

Answer 1

Hello,

Welcome to iclinq.com.

Internal conflicts between two opposing forces in your mind make you miserable. The second issue is your anxiety, irregularly of other bio functions like food to resolve internal conflicts. They need to be discussed in detail. I advise you to take therapy sessions either online or offline. They will help you a lot.

Meanwhile, try these.

Deep breathing, yoga, and meditation.
Eat a healthy, nutritious diet.
Fix the duration and time of sleep as well as the wake-up time.
Prioritize things, social communication and connection are a must.

Thank you.